"Learning" [10 Scenes From Training - real title]

i liked this reading assignment, yet it was different from the rest of the pieces read so far. this - as they all really are - is more about teaching/training a sub within diferent scenarios. some are quite interesting.

my favorite is the "His fingers guiding her mouth" snippet: she is giving Him head as He fingers her pussy...however He plays, the movement of finger[s] is how deep she is to take His cock. He teases her until He lets her know the moment He climaxes.
i am a whore for fingers! love the feel of being finger-fucked by a Man. the climaxes are awesome, heaven!

another was "tied up": a Dom whipped His sub and wanted her still so tied her up. i can stay still with a hand but a whip? hmm

each scene was to show the "degree" of control a Dom has and can express. at the same time, it shows how much a sub can take...

written March 10, 2009

"Body Art"

He asked me to share why i have "body art," or in my language, why i'm inked. His statement, "at some point in your life you had no body art...to me..back then you were pristine...the rest is just stories of drunkenness or poor decision making skills"

i was not drunk when i decided or received the three tattoos. i also thought about each one for years before doing so.

the first, a Winnie-the Pooh dancing on a <>< symbol, which reps God's dancefloor in heaven. Pooh Bear reps "all God's children," if in fact we are His [and He truly exist]. so basically, heaven is a time to be kids and party!

the second tattoo i received is that of my soon to be 20 year year old son. the picture is him at two years old. why did i do it? i gave up my son when he was born. i had no chance of raising him on my own. anyway, my tattoo shows the love i have for him....

my last tattoo is a Bible verse, ecls. 3:4 "....a time to grieve and a time to dance." this choice as a tattoo developed in two ways...
one, i love dancing, a beautiful artform. being disabled, dancing is limited for me but i still try! and two, grieving takes place daily on earth, there is always sadness. but maybe one day - i can hope, yes? overall, there is a time for all things to take place and they will in the way they should.

written March 10, 2009

"Such a Good girl" [0800 hour Appointment - real title]

fourth reading assignment and i really liked it. i am tired tonight but knew i needed to read for He has told me to read all i can and write daily. each assignment may be easy to read, yet i understand He desires i understand the nuances of a submissive.

this reading, for example was basically a sub's "appointment" with her Domme. from the first moment, sub disobeyed by not wearing what was specified. also, she masturbated without permission several times. she paid her punishment [Sir, what are "pegs?"] and was actually rewarded quite nicely. and i do mean quite...

i would love to be in the situation she was in....my mind put me in the sub's body. the spanking that my ass felt as i read the words of every swat and sting.

sitting here, reading the words, wanting to feel it for real...being OTK of You. Your hand creating the beautiful sound i love so much. the sound leading to the feel of pain & pleasure, leading to the vibrator being placed on clit just to have orgasms course through my body and have Dom[me] hold me, kissing me tenderly, as if protecting me of my own desires, my addiction to the climax, yet allowing me to enjoy it in safety.

taking instructions as a sub and knowing my place will make me such a good girl...

written March 9, 2009

"How Rude!"

i lack sleep today as i write and think. why must neighbors decide to be rude assholes and fight at 2:00 AM!!!? if i did not sleep nude i would have gone outside and asked if they had a fucking brain in their heads! kept me awake for hours and once awake - stayed awake!

karma's a bitch....will be waking them soon. where's my ac/dc?!!

i know, i know - not very submissive. but dammit even a nymph needs sleep! brain needs rest to be workable!

written March 9, 2009

"What if...?" [Purity Laws, chs1-7: real title]

another assignment of reading. this one, based on sexual purity [not fun]. from a man's POV - what happens when not pure! caught, exposed and tried in a court of law. then punished, in excruciating ways. i do not have a cock & balls [although i'm told i have more balls than most men], i felt the extreme pain described in these chapters. so much so that i can only write one section on it. going from a "twisting" to "caged" and weights were quite trying. but to end as it did, with wax and chastity device - permanent...

two different thoughts run through my submissive mind...
1st, can i be so "controlled" by a Dom that if i were to create my own sexual pleasure, He could/would punish me in such hard & cruel ways? what would happen if He denies me pleasure and i defy Him? would He use similar techniques, such as hot wax & chastity belt?

the other thought i had came from my "legal" mindset -
what would take place if the only time one could have sex is if one is married and planning on having children? could "big brother" control people to point where sexual pleasure was prohibited, even masturbation? we would have a world full of pissed-off people OR tons of kids! kids would overrun the world!

already - prostitution is punishable by law. why? would it not be "easier," safer if legalized? the women [and men who do it] would not be seen as less than. anyway i digress...
just think though, what if personal pleasure was taken away...?

written March 8, 2009

"R is for Roleplay"

another reading - not exactly sure what to think about it....was not exactly "bdsm" per se but very sexy and oh-so-kinky. i could not tell who was the Dom or who was the sub. T/they seemed to blur the lines.

i would like to enjoy such an act as T/they performed - the most intimate act i could think of at the moment. i have always felt anything orally is quite intimate. yet, the act of orally stimulating another's anal area.

what goes through a person's mind in order to ready oneself to "go there" with their tongue? is it any different than oral acts? would i do it? would i know how to? could i please the Person as S/He desired?

written March 7, 2009

"Analogy: part 2"

there is nothing to say after reading the last part, except ....
"this nymph needs, wants, craves, desires, begs and pleads for such a night as this!"

i know in a D/s relationship, it is His pleasure that is to be fulfilled - but in reality He brings pleasure to the sub as He receives it from her. in this section of reading the Dom sees how ready the sub is for His last lesson. He instantly puts her through the session using the tools of the night; anal dildo, lubricannt, vibrator, rope, blindfold and of course the collar...and His hard cock.

the scene involving the acts performed causes me to wonder how it would actually feel to be treated as He did her, all in love and carefully bringing out who she really was.

she is a submissive who will please her Dom in any form He ask...

written March 7, 2009